Reticent Reflections

Silently I walk towards the mirror and stare at my reflection.
Puffy eyes, disheveled hair and an expressionless face staring back at me.

Along with two quizzical eyes which seem to have thousands of questions.

What am I up to? Where is all this leading to? What next?

I seem to have landed up at a crossroads where the only thing clear is confusion.

Enough!! My mind seems to scream but my heart refuses to hear.

Why is that I choose to wallow in the past and not embrace my present?

Why cannot I make peace with it, let it go and move on towards a hopeful future?

Why is that I still want to live with this hurt and resentment instead of a life with dignity and respect?

I shut my eyes unable to bear the horrifying image of something that was me.....

A tear silently rolls out of my eye as I hear my heart quietly whisper,

Enough...I cannot take it any more as the pain just refuses to go….

Slowly I open my eyes to see twinkling hope shining through.

And right below there I see a line turning into a curve slowly.

This is it I resonate to myself.

There began of a new journey of learning and unlearning things,
Falling, getting up again to fall…loving, living and laughing!

Keeping my fingers crossed I take step after step on this pristine path;

Hoping to meet an immaculate me on this new way~

Clutching onto my dreams tightly in my fist,

Striding away ahead to know the unknown.

P.S. This post is written for That Tuesday Thingy, an *IndiBlogeshwaris* initiative.

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